I would lie if I said it hasn’t been a while since I last made an updated here on my little platform.
A lot of things have happened! and I can’t wait to write about it very soon.
But maybe you have noticed that I’ve deleted my entire Instagram feed? at least for now… or for the rest of this year… or maybe forever… that’s still a bit unknown.
For a while I’ve really spent way to much time on social media, and I felt trapped in something that started to feel like a duty more than something I actually enjoyed doing, and to be honest I felt like even though my Instagram was at its best and really started to grow, it just didn’t felt right.
It took to much of my time and focus away from the things I actually wanna do and it drained me completely from creativity.
Its now been a month since I deleted everything, and so far it feels like it was the right decision.
I still check in on Instagram from time to time, to post a little story when I’m bored or just to check in on what my friends are up to.
Maybe I’ll be back, maybe I won’t.
But for now, I think I will use Instagram for “stories” only.
That is something I really like about the “stories” function, I think it because its rawer in some way. I don’t know.
But now you know.
I know that this has absolutely no relevance for you as a “random” reader who just stumbled across my little blog here.
But this is my blog so…. I decided the importance of every post here, okay? okay.
So currently, life is going on…as always.
We are all in the process of growing every day while learning more and more about ourselves, and the people, and places around us.
Personally, I’m stressed out…but in such a good way, that it almost feels like a nice rush to me. A bit dangerous, I know.
Which has resulted in, that I probably have to quit drinking coffee… because it’s really not healthy for me in the long row. Not right now at least.
But! that’s not my point, my point with this post is actually just to share my personal stage of excitement for life and all the love I have for all the great people that I’m so fucking blessed to have around me.
You see, I know that not all people are gonna be in our lives forever.
But as good friends, we just gotta accept that there is going to be periods of everyone’s lives where we are not gonna talk as much as we used to.
And that’s fine because there are only 24 hours per day and unfortunately none of us has superpowers, so we can’t do ALL the things we really wanna do or see ALL the people we really want to see, or at least not EVERYTHING at one and the same time.
That is something me and my brain can have a hard time dealing with from time to time.
But it’s okay I’ll get better with the age, I know.
So last but least.
A special thanks to my friends, for being such nice people with the greatest hearts I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet.
Remember that you are doing great, we are doing great because we got each other.
Please never stop smiling.
A very sleepy & grateful
(Btw the cute girl on the picture is my friend Amanda, she’s lovely, I hope she won’t get mad at me for not asking for her permission to use this picture of her)
Changing hair color, or getting my friend Anna to cut my hair while she’s been drinking red wine …. are not really a new thing to me.
The new thing is actually that I went to a professional this time!
I have dyed my hair for many years now, and I’ve been thinking about going back (or closer) to my natural hair color for such a long time.
But! It all happened very spontaneously.
First of all, I did not really plan to get my hair done … I was actually just going with my friend Nattha to a salon called Freund, where she was going to get her beautiful long hair cut into a bob and dyed ashy blond, her dream is to go even blonder which I am a huge supporter of… so Nattha, go blond or go home! you beautiful little piece of honey.
Nattha got her hair done by the most amazing hairdresser Kasper Andersen, who is now or favorite hairdresser of all time!
He is absolutely amazing at his job and such a sweet person.
So after I saw Nattha’s beautiful result, Kasper was so sweet to take his time to fix my hair too which I am so thankful for!
He basically made all of my hair dreams come true, with going back to my natural color and giving it a twist with cutting some cute bangs… which I’ve never thought would suit me, but I really like it!
All in all, we had a great evening with candy, beers and the sweetest hairdresser on earth.
Last week my cousin and I went for a ride in her car and stopped at McDonald’s drive-in, simply just to get the best Coca-Cola in town and some fries.
After that we just drove around listening to music, taking pictures and making small videos, while catching up on both of our life situations.
Where I come from, it used to be really inappropriate to pin out the things you love about yourself or simply just the things your good at.
But Instagram or just social media, in general, came into the world and changed that.
My generation loves to show off on social media but in an “I’m not really trying to hard, kind of way” of course, even I do that… but we all know, that we all try our best to look good, or at least to create a look or an aesthetic that fits our image or into the IG feed.
So, every day we collect inspiration, on social media, in magazines, TV, commercials, and from all the beautiful people we see on the streets that we think look better than ourselves.
But this is not a blog post about how bad the society has become with all its technology, social media, and unrealistic bullshit.
But let me tell you this…not everything is unrealistic, even though some things can be sometimes, even when they actually look real.
Sometimes you get fooled, but not every time.
Just remember we are society, so in the end, I believe that it’s all up to ourselves.
Everything…education/no education, sexuality, religion, coffee brand, political opinion, mental health, love, toothpaste, body image, and attitude.
Motherfucking everything is up to you.
Sorry for my underdeveloped language skills, but I’m a simple being.
My point is just that recently while I was walking around naked in my apartment, got a comment/compliment from two of my very close friends, saying ” Nanna, why are you so comfortable naked?” they both said with a laugh and at the same time with an admiring tone to there voices.
Normally I would just have said something stupid or even made a joke of my nonexistent tits.
But instead I just simply asked “why would I ever feel uncomfortable right now? just because I’m naked in front of you? I mean I’m happy about me” while trying not to sound arrogant or get misunderstood.
And then it hit me, I truly feel blessed because of the fact that I’m not worried about situations like that.
And it’s actually really something that I’m grateful for every single day… because, imagine going through every single day having one less thing to worry about, so you can put your time and focus into dreams and people, wouldn’t that be great?
I know that self-image and especially body image matter so much to most women around the globe, and I’m only saying that because I am a woman.
Thoughts like “if I could just find the time and energy to workout as much as that Instagram model”, ” I feel fat after eating those fries” “that girl have such a nice pair of legs, mine are short enough to fit into the kid section jeans, besides my ass is too big” or even “I wonder if his ex’s skin was prettier than mine” .
Bullshit thoughts, that you hit yourself with when you’re mostly already feeling low, thoughts that can easily take away the feeling of being carelessly happy.
And that is just a waste of time because your happiness should always be your number one priority.
Even if it involves other people or drastic changes, all you get is you and you gotta be the best role model for yourself.
That’s why I want to share my thoughts on that situation with you guys, and I really hope that you are getting the right vibes from me because I’m really not trying to sound totally put together or anything, it’s just my personal thoughts and I know that we all got insecurities.
But as long as we work on them.
Personally, I would say while growing up I have reached a mental level that allows me to think that I am 100% perfect for me and that has to be! and is! enough!
And if there is something about me or the way I look that distracts me from being happy, I’ll 100% go change that into the better by working and improving in some way, or make myself think about if my insecurity actually is something I can accept and learn to love? because if you can’t love it it’s not worth your time thinking about accepting it. Then rather take action to learn something new. For example, I used to hate my eye’s, I have something called a lazy eye which results in that my left eye is much more closed than the right eye, which made me think that I kinda looked like the cartoon Quasimoto. It used to bother me so much when I was younger, that I was 100% sure that I was going to have a surgery the day I would turn 18 so I could finally get rid of my lazy eye.
But that never happened, I now live in 2018 along whit my cute lazy eye on my face.
As I grew older I started to realize that my insecurity actually was something other people adored about my look. And of course that instantly empowers you a little, after all as humans, we are all searching for recognition.
Especially hearing something like that from a person you love, doesn’t necessarily make you believe in it, but it can plant a little seed of self-love and encourage you to bloom later on.
Remember, we all experience the world in different ways, so the things you feel insecure about can actually be the things that we love about you.
So, my advice on how to get more comfortable with yourself and your body is simply to give your insecurities a big warm hug and tell them to calm the fuck down, they are a part of you and you are the most perfect imperfection.
Trust me your imperfections can shape you to be even more awesome if you just let yourself love them to the fullest.
Perfection was born from imperfections.
And last but not least, outta glow and what I personally define as “good-looking people” comes from inner peace, a kind heart, and a great personality.
So…I’m on a road, I don’t know where it’s gonna take me to.
But the most important thing is that I’m on it.
We just have to remember.
The first to apologize is the bravest.
The first to forgive is the strongest.
The first to forget is the happiest, but not forever.
But the thing is not to forget anything, it’s about accepting it or do something about it.
The answer is a lot of things.
Currently, I’m off work because the thing is that I’m sick.
So that’s also why I haven’t been so much around on social media or here on my blog, which is just so stupid because I always thought of my blog as my personal space where I can drop off all of my thoughts.
So that is what I’m doing now, getting some of my thought off my mind so I hopefully can relax before having my last check up on the hospital on Friday.
The thing is just that I like to keep my health situation very private and that’s also why it’s difficult to write about…because I don’t wanna write about it, but yeah since that is one of the reasons why I’m not around at the moment it just had to be included.
So to you guys who have been asking me in dm on Instagram.
No, I’m not quitting social media or my blog I just needed to take time for myself.
But one of the reasons I also have been away from social media is because of the fact, that last month has been nothing else than one of the best months of my life so far.
I spend so much time seeing new places and discovering feelings I didn’t think that I could ever feel.
Well, happy new year everyone!
I’m sure that you all made it through so far and hopefully didn’t got your hands blown off at new years eve.
Some of you may still be struggling with the leftovers of your hangover, or maybe just continuing your hangover? But that’s what brings us to this point where we’re going to talk about how great people we’re going to be in the new year. How we’re going to get a bonus at work, how we’re going to workout every day and get in shape, how we’re going to travel the world for free, and how this is the year where we’re going to find true love.
But in the end, we all know that’s not going to happen.
Personally, I love to dream about how great everything is going to turn out someday, and no joke, it would be nice if everything just fell into place in one year.
But let’s face it… life is a bitch from time to time, and we all know that only if we’re lucky, maybe one of these goals are going to come true this year.
So, now you probably jumped to the conclusion that I’m a negative person?
But let me tell you this, I’m not.
In general, I’m just tired of hearing from pretty much every blogger/youtuber/and fucking influencers! how they are going to travel the world for free, how they are planning to find true love and get married, how they just randomly are going on a sick diet where they have to live of vegetable juices every day!?! because they have 700 photoshop … I mean “photoshoots” to attend to.
And then they all be like, New year new me.
And that line just has to happily disappear from my world, please just delete it from your vocabulary.
May you say I’m just jealous? maybe? I absolutely am just like everyone else would be.
In fact, my point is, don’t just be a better you because of a god damn new year! be a better version of you, for you every day.
I’m not saying that you have to forget about all of your dreams and goals, or even be realistic about them…that was just an advice. Actually, promises me you’ll never do that! just go for it.
But you don’t have to change because of the fact that we’re going from 2017 to 2018. Or because some annoying blogger just told you about all of their crazy goals for 2018 and now you just sit there in your bed with your computer feeling bad about yourself, just like I do.
But that’s why I’m here to tell you this.
You only have to change yourself for you and your needs and dreams.
Try to see the world from different perspectives, no-one said that your perspective was the right one, right?
Maybe you learn something, or you learn someone.
But in the end, that’s what I believe makes the difference.
By learning little by little, and see what works out the best.
Just start today okay? not in 2019.
I’ve been wanting to talk about this for a really long time…But today was the day, that I finally realized that I had to come clean, not just to the people around, but mostly for myself, so I can begin to live my life fully and surround myself with the things that I love to do.
The topic of today is how I’ve got to learn to love – and own up to – who I truly am… to embrace both my personality, passions and dreams.
For the past few months I’ve been consulting a psychologist because of some mental issues that I’m struggling with…the things I’m struggling with are still to private for me to share though, but I guess we all have our secrets.
But I can tell you that the last time I was in therapy my psychologist reminded me of one (sorry for my language) motherfucking important thing! life is too short to let all the bad things and people in your life get you down.
For a long time I’ve been scared of being who I am, own it and embrace it. And the weird thing is that Im not scared to let the world know, but I’m scared to embrace it in front of my closest. And that have just made me feel awful about myself for a really long time, I mean your family should be the people that know you the best right? But for me…it’s just not the case right now.
I mean of course they know me, most of them have seen me grow up, but a lot have been going on the last few years….and lets just say I’ve had my ups and downs, that very few people know about.
But now I’m finally beginning to feel better, but this little tiny thing is still knocking me down everyday.
Because.. I feel that my parents (whom I love endlessly of course) doesn’t accept my interests or who I’ve become the last few years.
I’ve changed a lot, not my personality but my interests have definitely changed.
My parents got a divorce when I was about 10-11 years old, and I’ve lived with my dad ever since.
Me and my dad had always had a huge passion for motorsports and I’ve been driving gokart for many years and I loved it.
But since I started at the gymnasium and things were getting totally out of hand with my mental health and I was feeling completely damaged inside, because of all the bad thoughts and stress in my head.
I had to quit school for a whole year.
The next year I started again, but realised that I had to quit one of my biggest passions and hobbies, motorsports.
I remember being devastated about telling my dad that I wasn’t going to drive anymore, because of school. But he saw the point with my decision very quickly. But I think he at some point always thought I would start driving again after I’ve finished school.
But as I said earlier my interests really went form one end of the spectrum to the other.
I’ve always been very creative as a kid and I think it just came back to me in the past few years. I’ve started drawing, editing, taking pictures, and all in all just creating something again.
And then I threw my love on fashion and social media.
That’s why I started a blog and just recently started a little youtube channel, because I just like to create something.
But my parents are of course from another generation than I am, so they don’t quite understand what a blog or a youtube channel is…
They have created their own vision on social media persons, like youtubers, bloggers or instagramers as people that just love to think that they are better than anybody else, and just want to throw their perfect life up in your face every time you open your instagram.
People that only think THEY are the shit and maybe take themselves a little bit too seriously.
But in some case my parents just forgot I guess, that I’m not like that.
And thats why they just never really accepted it before today.
Because today I told them, that they made me sad for being who I am…and for not supporting me in my dreams and new passions.
And honestly when my parents doubt me, I doubt me too.
Because I just really wanted to make them proud, but even though the most important thing is to first of all make myself proud.
The worst feeling is to feel like you have to hide a part of yourself everyday. And I’ve never felt that I had to hide in front of strangers, but definitely in front of my family definitely because I’ve alway known that they wouldn’t understand at all.
But you can’t hide forever, and nobody should because it’s hella exhausting and it just made me more and more insecure about myself. I mean I’ve never shared my blog on my facebook wall because I was scared that people that know my family would start asking them questions, and then I thought my family maybe would be like ” yeah I don’t really know whats going on ether”.
That’s why I realised that I had to find some courage to speak up and tell them point of view.
We have now had a really long talk about all of this, and my parents were truly happy that I actually shared my thoughts like this and stood up for myself. Besides that, they have now seen the differences between bloggers, youtubers and so on, and realised that it’s not all of us that just want to talk about how amazing our lifes are our how you just can’t be fashionable without a crazy expensive designer bag, that you only should buy brand new from the Chanel store and never second hand.
Some of us just like to share fashion inspiration, play with colours and prints, photography and video editing, and most importantly share a little personality and relate to other pepole.
Because I see it as a give an take business, you get inspired and then you inspire.
You read a story and maybe related to it, and then maybe starts to reflect over your own life or decisions. And who knows maybe it helps maybe it doesn’t, but at least it was some kind of entertaining.
That’s why I’m so relieved now that my parents actually know me for who I am again.
And most of all accept me, so I can start not being scared anymore, because now I know they got my back.
Promise me you never hide yourself for so long like I did, life is to short to not live your dreams and passions, and not embracing yourself for being just who you want to be, yourself.
I know that now.
Hello ladies and gents
So, last thursday me and my friend and blogger Melissa went out for a little shopping in the city.
And I tell you guys, it have literally been raining all summer here in Copenhagen and last thursday was no exception.
But we had a nice time anyway, we stopped by a lot of high end vintage stores, got a little break at kaf’ bar 9, and I finally got myself a little something from the gucci store.
And of course I will reveal what I got very soon.
And hey check out Melissa’s new blog post as well right here.